Friday, February 26, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Don't know what to do with a blog
Maybe I'll get back to this blog someday... like now.
Seriously, blogging is something I've always wanted to do but I've always to lazy or focused on a single thing to just sit down and write.
I currently post a lot of poetry on a different art site, but I have hard time finding a way to get that stuff here. Maybe I should?
Anyways, maybe I should take this time to explain myself, who I am and why I want to write. My name is Darla and I grew up in a small town, with a brother with a disability. He has autism, you can just google that, its pretty common now anyways. My family was a bit disfunctional but that was ok, I enjoyed it.
Personally I feel like I've done a lot even though I'm still stuck at home living with my parents and barely survived with school fees and want food and my constant craving for Starbucks (a student can't afford this, trust me).
I fell in love once, I know that in itself is not much of an accomplishment because we're all supposed to do that eventually anyway. But my first love taught me more than I think I will learn in the rest of this life. He gave me proof that life was more that just what we see even though he didn't really believe in that himself.
I like to write... mostly poetry and stuff. I like to take pictures, especially macro because that's all my camera is good at. I like to play with photo editing even though I use is a free knock-off of paint.NET.
Anyways right now I'm supposed to be writing an English assignment, I'll get back to that, and maybe post a poem here later.
- Darla :)
Seriously, blogging is something I've always wanted to do but I've always to lazy or focused on a single thing to just sit down and write.
I currently post a lot of poetry on a different art site, but I have hard time finding a way to get that stuff here. Maybe I should?
Anyways, maybe I should take this time to explain myself, who I am and why I want to write. My name is Darla and I grew up in a small town, with a brother with a disability. He has autism, you can just google that, its pretty common now anyways. My family was a bit disfunctional but that was ok, I enjoyed it.
Personally I feel like I've done a lot even though I'm still stuck at home living with my parents and barely survived with school fees and want food and my constant craving for Starbucks (a student can't afford this, trust me).
I fell in love once, I know that in itself is not much of an accomplishment because we're all supposed to do that eventually anyway. But my first love taught me more than I think I will learn in the rest of this life. He gave me proof that life was more that just what we see even though he didn't really believe in that himself.
I like to write... mostly poetry and stuff. I like to take pictures, especially macro because that's all my camera is good at. I like to play with photo editing even though I use is a free knock-off of paint.NET.
Anyways right now I'm supposed to be writing an English assignment, I'll get back to that, and maybe post a poem here later.
- Darla :)
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
19 Tulips
I feel like I am a living movie,
the scene of your death was so cliche
and now, here I lay
whispering musings to your grave
I close my eyes, a single tear falls
I wonder if I should let them free
But I don't want to intrupt your rest
I hear the birds singing a love-filled lullaby
and I lay my head down beside you
imagining your face in the gray ground
I remember how they lowered you in,
encased with white pillows,
in a light wooden box
Inside vibrant royal blue you rest
your name encased in stainless steel.
I tell myself, if it was me
no place I would rather be
than right here, 8 feet under
with my lover reaching down
I cry and I smile
I curl into a ball
I steal a stone from the grave yard
the only place I find peace.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
SUDEP
Sudden
Unexpected
Death
SUDEP
1 in 1000
Epilepsy patients
Uncontrolled seizures
I love one
One with that condition
1 in 1000
I loved that one
The 1 in a 1000
That will suddenly,
Unexpectedly
Die.
1 in 1000
Never thought it would be me.
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While it wasn't exactly SUDEP ... it was close enough.
How does someone drown from one minute (if that) under water ....
it still doesn't add up.
SUDEP - Sudden Unexpected Death in Epilepsy Patients.
It's more likely to happen to someone with uncontrolled seizures but 1 in 1000 people with epilepsy will die, unexpectedly, with no explanation ... (I hate writing that, it sounds so horrible)
Before he died, I didn't even know that this existed. So always live for today, you never know whats gonna happen . . .
Unexpected
Death
SUDEP
1 in 1000
Epilepsy patients
Uncontrolled seizures
I love one
One with that condition
1 in 1000
I loved that one
The 1 in a 1000
That will suddenly,
Unexpectedly
Die.
1 in 1000
Never thought it would be me.
-----------
While it wasn't exactly SUDEP ... it was close enough.
How does someone drown from one minute (if that) under water ....
it still doesn't add up.
SUDEP - Sudden Unexpected Death in Epilepsy Patients.
It's more likely to happen to someone with uncontrolled seizures but 1 in 1000 people with epilepsy will die, unexpectedly, with no explanation ... (I hate writing that, it sounds so horrible)
Before he died, I didn't even know that this existed. So always live for today, you never know whats gonna happen . . .
3 Months, 2 Days, 20 Minutes
3 months, 2 days, 20 minutes ago
a single heart slowed,
raised by a mothers scream,
calmed by a lovers hold
you whispered in a ear
that was two rooms away
love is the miracles,
the guardian angel
love is the heart speeding up,
even when its slowing down
love is the nurses,
turning off the alarms
love is me,
kissing lifeless lips,
bloodstained
love is strong;
death is stronger.
a single heart slowed,
raised by a mothers scream,
calmed by a lovers hold
you whispered in a ear
that was two rooms away
love is the miracles,
the guardian angel
love is the heart speeding up,
even when its slowing down
love is the nurses,
turning off the alarms
love is me,
kissing lifeless lips,
bloodstained
love is strong;
death is stronger.
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