So Brave

I stood
I read my story
I smiled at the memory

I sat
Listened to the Eulogy
Laughed at the memory

Still sitting
Heard your bothers say I’m family now
No emotion

I stare
The casket, light wood
The picture of you, black and white
Still longing

I walk
People I don’t know
Staring at me, crying

I listen
The whispers
“She’s so brave, so strong”

I follow
Your body encased
Outside, a temperature plummet

I watch
As they lower you
Into royal blue,
They seal you in.

I hear
The tears of everyone
Your mother, your father
They walk away.

I stare,
The beautiful long box,
Your name etched in the metal

I break.